The Cannon

As I sit here at Dave's computer, and as Dave is sprawled across his bed in some unorthodox position, I can't help but wonder how many events it took to lead up to this exact moment.

I'm quite happy in this setting. Not only five minutes ago, I called into work sick. The truth is, I feel pretty fantastic. The whole day is at my disposal, and I intend to take advantage of that.

Learning to live in the "now", at least for the next few months, has proven difficult. I find it hard to feel a sense of satisfaction, when looking towards the future. Though, I've trained myself to be reassuring, and regardless of unknowns I can't do much.

I'm close to beginning a diet, at the beginning of next week actually. I've been feeling particularly large, and not in charge. It'd be nice to feel physically better, as well as mentally. Besides, I'm walking to work daily, and planning on dusting off Cat's pilates DvD. Ah, the possibilities are endless!

Eventually, when I've had enough, I'll start looking for a new job. Despite the decent hours, Booster Juice is wearing down my soul, and, I know some may scoff at this, but I'd rather a more chill environment. Even the slow days keep steady pace, and I'd just like some time to sit and breathe for Christ sakes.

I've been wanting (needing?) to go back to school. I miss it. I've went through so many years of treating it with so much unimportance, and never realizing that it actually did something for me. What did I have to do that was so better? Leaving my essays until the morning of, arriving to class late to hand it in. It just seems so foolish to me now. I know, there are so many kinks to work out, such as what I will go back to school for. But those are to be resolved at a later date, because I have the time. I have time. It feels nice to say. Sure, technically speaking everyone has time, and yeah, we never have ENOUGH time. But, still. For once I don't feel like the spool is running low, y'know?


Now that Daves breathing is being erratic, I'd better go lie in bed so I can give him a nudge when he hasn't inhaled for over a minute. That's what I'm here for.